As you probably know by now, I HATE living with my parents.
It's torture, and I have no privacy or a real life outside the walls of my bedroom.
I thought that it had mellowed out a bit until tonight, when my mom and I got into an argument.
You see, she keeps threatening to not let me go to college. It drives me crazy. She thinks I can't handle it. I pointed out that I have a 100% A in the class that I'm taking right now, but it's not enough. It's NEVERRRR enough.
I apply for jobs almost daily, do all of my work to my full potential and participate actively in class, but my mom wants much, much more.
She made me a list that outlines all the things she expects me to do if I expect to go to OSU in the fall. This list is just a reminder of how little my mom knows about me.
Here it is:
"What to Do?
1. Establish a regular sleep schedule
2. Start each day with an exercise routine.
3. Make contacts & solicit babysitting jobs.
4. Complete & follow up on zoo camp application.
5. Establish & Maintain a working order to living space.
(Your room- should require minimal time & attention)
6. Read book at least 1hr/day- preferably classics a college student should have read
7. Do own laundry regularly, including sheets.
8. Contribute to household upkeep- clean up after self in all common spaces, volunteer to cook at least 1 meal/week.
9. Seek out interior designers to do job shadows- should know if this is going to be work of special interest.
10. Plan sequences of classes needed to complete major.
11. Register for PSU spring term-choose classes now.
12. Catch up on all thank you notes owed- you will feel better & recipients will be happy to be recognized.
13. Ask family members about art project chosen (your x-mas gift), get supplies and make art projects.
14. Schedule Vega dance classes & go regularly.
15. Look up areas of potential interest at library.
16. Establish a study time daily.
17. Start following current events- read newspaper or follow news online.
18. Register to vote- need to do in advance if ever want to vote on issue or candidate."
This isn't normal, is it? To make a list like this for your 19 year old daughter? The fact that she expects me to do all of these things is a little ridiculous. I'm her daughter, not her robot bitch. I don't have interest in reading classic literature for fun and I certainly don't feel the need to start every day with an exercise routine.
Oh, and furthermore, I've already done most of these things, but she doesn't even take the time to ask. She just assumes I'm her big failure of a daughter that would be nowhere without the help of heroic mom. GUH!
Good god, I don't know how much longer I can stand this. She's such a control freak.
I still have 7 more months of this, too. Seven months of mindgames, of "I would change your attitude if you want to go to OSU..."
I did well in school for thirteen damn years. I graduated with honors. Now I screw up two classes my first term of college and I get this wrath from hell? What the fuck?!
I'm nearing a breaking point.
If I'm still alive by September, I will be hauling ass to Corvallis.
4 comments:
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Wouldn't the dancing double as en exercise routine? And Christmas is 10 months away. Um...
I agree with you. This list is the makeup of her ideal daughter. There are only 24 hours in a day. I'd like to see her do all this. Hmmm?
GAH, thank you! She makes me feel so insane sometimes. And trust me, productivity is my mom's middle name. She probably DOES all of these things. I need to see you, pronto!!!
Hi- I am sorry you are having such a hard time with your parents. Your writing is great. Keep on going. It will all get better for you one day. Just keep chasing your dreams.
Oh wow, thanks! I'm surprised that you think my rants and complaining are great, but thank you anyways. :) I appreciate it. Hey we have the same name, sweet!
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